Songs For Lillie May  

This project is a long time coming. I have felt led by the led by the LORD God Almighty to sing some of my grandmother's favorite hymns and record them and place them on a compact disc for her. Well, I finally found the creative energy to finally record these songs. I used a single mic and recorded straight into my reel to reel tape machine, which I then brought back into my computer to have a digitized file/do minimal equilization and mastering work. I thought it would be usefully to share this small album with anyone who might be interested. ALSO, the painting on the cover was done by my awesome grandmother, Lillie May Wolfe. I hope you enjoy the recordings. If not, thanks for giving it a try. God bless you.

I'm wrong, right?  

This song has been through many iterations. Just looking back now, I wrote this song eight and a half years ago. Many many moons have passed since then, and a whole lot of life has happened since then. But, to be honest, this song is as timely for me as it has ever been. It is an evergreen. And that is why I have demoed it 4 different times to no avail, but I never gave up on this one. I hope you enjoy it. It really means a lot to me. God has been very gracious in helping me write some things that are so packed with meaning. To be honest, I still unpack meaning that I never even realized existed in some of these songs. All glory to my creator, Yeshua. In case you haven't realized yet, you don't know as much as you think you do either. That is where true freedom comes, in being humbled and coming to grips with the fact that you will never be able to come to the end of God. Peace and blessings unto you. Thanks for listening to my music.

 

METANOIA  

If I told you that it was difficult for me to put these songs out, it would be only partially true. In my fleshly nature, I am weak, and prone to massive amounts of insecurity, BUT, I have been regenerated by the Holy Spirit of the MOST HIGH GOD, and when He tells me to jump, my spirit says "how high, LORD?" That is what our relationship looks like now. I have fully surrendered my rights over to Him. To be honest with you, it seems rather bold to put the unadulterated truth out these days, but that philosophy is not the wisdom that is from above. The wisdom from above tells you to do everything that you possibly can in regards to the kingdom of God today, as we have no guarantee for the morrow. Do you understand that when you die (AND DIE YOU WILL, unless you get raptured), you will stand face to face before GOD ALMIGHTY, your maker, the maker of the heavens and the earth, and you will give an account of every moment of time you have had on this planet? I know you know that from a theoretical standpoint, but do you meditate on these things? GOD is real. He is your LORD. He is the LORD of all things. We will see Him put everything in subjection under Christ's feet soon enough. So, choose you must. It's a choice between bowing your knee now and receiving the benefits that the LORD wants to bless you with (Spiritual benefits, that is), or you WILL bow your knee at the last day, but it will be dreadful. If any of this alarms you, I challenge you to read your Bible tonight instead of mindlessly scrolling through Instagram. Wake up, Christian. AND, if you are unsaved, repent and believe in the LORD Jesus and be baptized in His name, for the kingdom of God is very nigh. 

I have just posted 4 new songs on this website. You will more than likely not see me out promoting these songs, unless the LORD reveals otherwise to me. If you believe the message needs to be heard, please share it. This is a message...let's hope we understand it. The LORD has given these songs to me to share with you. I pray that you are blessed and touched by GOD today. Open your eyes to His goodness and His light, while you still have a chance.

Fire by Fire--I'm going back to my roots.  

This is a song I wrote about a week ago. I have been struggling mightily to figure out how I plan to release a bunch of music I have on the back burner, but I do believe that I finally have a way to get some things accomplished. Yesterday, my favorite acoustic, my Martin Special 16, took a slight tumble and it is going to have to go bye-bye to get repaired. Out of my sadness, it got me thinking about my acoustics (I may have an obsession, if I'm telling you the truth), and I decided to take a second look at my old Alvarez. It was the first guitar I was able to own, and I purchased it as a young teenager after saving up an entire summer of grass cutting fees in my neighborhood. This guitar has been put through the ringer, and I haven't played it in quite some time due to some intonation issues (it wasn't consistently tunable) it had. Well, long story short, I was able to make some adjustments on it today, and I got the guitar intonation issues rectified. I slapped some new strings on her, and we are off to the races. All that being said, I am tired of not being able to release music more consistently, and a lot of the reason why is because I tend to overcomplicate the productions, and then I get discouraged to finish, because there are just too many parts to contend with. Well, I am going to make a concerted effort to record as many songs as I have written that I think are worth sharing in as simple a way as possible. Like this one. It is certainly bare bones, but my wife really loves to hear my vocals cut through, and I think a simple arrangement is the best way to make that happen. Also, I feel pretty excited to get something finished so quickly. If the Lord continues to gives me the strength and energy, I plan on releasing a lot more songs in a similar vein as this one, so if you find yourself enjoying it, keep a close watch, because my hope is to keep them coming. Be blessed. 

Also, I really mean these lyrics. In this time of increasing uncertainty, there is only one thing we can truly be certain of: it's that Jesus is real, and He is coming back for His people. Look to Him, and He will make your paths straight. Much love.

Merriment--maybe my favorite song I've ever written.  

This song is very special to me. I wrote it right in the midst of a really sweet spiritual time in my life. I was having one of those upswings in one's faith journey where I felt like I was floating when I walked. I woke up early one morning in that time period, and I wrote this entire song in about 13 minutes--probably less, truth be told. That may seem a little proud, and I must confess, I have been known to be a hair proud a time or two, but I mainly wish to convey the idea that this is one of those songs that just so happens to gently fall from the sky. I think it is very special. What I find particularly interesting is the fact that my spiritual high came crashing down probably only a couple of days after that initial flash of inspiration. This song resonates even more so in those times. Looking back, I now realize that this song was written specifically for those low periods--times when you wonder if pushing forward is even worth it. You woke up today. It is worth it.

Work hard. Eat and drink. Find merriment.

There will be much more new music coming very very soon. Stay tuned.

I NEED YOU!  

I'll be honest: when you bear your heart in a song, it can cause great apprehension when it finally comes down to putting it out there for the world to hear. At least this has been my experience. It's always maddening to think about how long it takes me to work up the guts to actually do it too. It's very easy for me to stay in my perpetual dream state, constantly up in the clouds envisioning what it's gonna be like when people finally get to hear the "REAL" me. Or when I'm able to show them what I'm really made of. "I'LL SHOW THEM!"  But here's the crazy, and oftentimes depressing part: those are just dreams. They are not reality. These awesome songs that I like to think myself capable of producing are nothing but a gust of wind...until...you put the work in. I'm severely insecure. It doesn't even matter that I've been encouraged more times than I could even begin to remember. In really ridiculous ways too. But, it's never enough. NEVER ENOUGH. It makes me feel like a narcissist sometimes. But I really don't believe that I am an actual egomaniac...I think it's that I try to find my worth in what I am able to do with my hands and vocal cords, rather than focus on the only thing that will truly bring joy and ultimate satisfaction, and that is to meditate on the truth of what God thinks about me. I think you should probably do that too. This song represents my frustrations and bitterness at myself for failing to meet my own ridiculous expectations, and it is a call to God for his help in remembering the things that actually do bring my spirit to life. I hope it encourages you. I couldn't be anymore autobiographical than with this song. And I'm scared. And I'm excited. And I feel alive again. Please listen to it. And please share it if you think it might encourage someone else as well. It will be on all of the normal internet platforms very soon. Thanks so much for making it this far. Be blessed.

-soli Deo gloria

Releasing my cover of Old Man by Neil Young  

This is a stressful thing for me. Putting so much effort into a single release is exhilarating, exhausting, excruciating, you get the idea. My emotions go up and down like a roller coaster. Then, when the thing that I have poured blood, sweat, and tears into is finished, there is a major come-down for me. I begin second guessing everything. Is this even good? Am I able to do better than this? Will people like it? Are Neil Young fanatics going to start a petition to have me drawn and quartered for covering such a sacred song? Obviously, some of these questions are subjective, but I do internalize this stuff way too much. You see, being an artist that has procrastinated most of the last decade away musically is an interesting thing to be. I long so much to be Mr. Prolific, and drop new songs on people so frequently and of such quality that they have to take notice. In reality, however, this is a highly unlikely ask. I am a father. I am a husband. I am a band mate. These are all very high on the priority list, and even though my wife practically forces me to work on this stuff, I still am drawn by a lot of other priorities. And you know what, I think it's fine. All I can really do is my best. And this is my best. At this time. There is a common adage in the music industry that a mix is never finished, it is abandoned. I very much think that applies in this case, but I can rest my head at night knowing full well that I gave this thing my all. And to be honest, this is nothing but an homage to the incomparable Neil Young. Harvest has changed me. I'm sure that Neil still gets an interesting kick out of playing this song knowing that now, possibly, some young man is looking at him and singing these words to him, rather than him singing to that rancher back in the 70's.

New website. 

This is very exciting for me: I've never had a legitimate website for my musical output. If you happen to be reading this, then I am so glad that you have stumbled upon this infinitesimal corner of the internet. This website is devoted to all of my musical going-ons. This may include but is not limited to: providing insight into my songwriting/record-making process, sharing loops and beats with the world, releasing new albums, keeping you up to date on groups I am playing with or records I am recording, sharing photos/videos of gigs, and so many more things. If you could happen to spend a moment or two inside my brain, you would understand that this music was put inside of me, and I do not get it out, I truly believe I will lose grip of my sanity. I am so glad you are here with me. If this journey sounds repulsive to you, go with God. No hard feelings. But, if you are truly interested in inspiration and how it comes to a man, then you are in the correct place, my friend. Welcome to the journey. Let's get inspired together.